Forgotten Journal of Bronil Nightwind Book2

1/28/06
(( For great justice! :D ))

Am I a hypocrite?

This question has appeared in every corner of my mind as of late. Many months ago, I met Mistress Lorial Dalane who was gathering a group of people dedicated to forging lasting peace with the Horde. Up until I met her, I was indifferent towards the Horde. But then she asked me the following questions:

Are you willing to walk the path to peace so that our children won't have to fight like we do now? Are you willing to take the first true steps towards peace and self enlightenment? Then this is the Guild for you. Together we will look the world straight in the face and watch as the sun raises over a new Azeroth that we had a hand in building.

Will you take the first steps, Bronil?

These questions struck me profoundly, and made me realize that I did not want Celesst, Tyron, and their future children to have to fight the Horde. So I joined Mistress Dalane's group "The Tranquil Dawn", taking those first steps.

. . . and yet, even as I write this entry, my arm aches with the pain of a spear I recieved yesterday in Warsong Gulch. With one arm I ask for peace, and with the other I slay members of the Horde. Is that not the way of a hypocrite? Yet, how can I ignore the plight of my fellow kaldorei? How can I ignore the devastation that the Warsong Orcs bring to the forest? How can I ignore that the Warsong Orcs slaughtered my mother, father, and older brother? Although they did so under demonic influence, that does not help to dull the pain of my loss at all.

The answer is I cannot ignore any of these things. I hate the Burning Legion for setting foot in this world, and hate that it was my own kin who first brought them here. I hate the Warsong Orcs for succumbing to those demonic energies. I hate myself for not being strong enough to resist the call of battle; for not being strong enough to save my family and village.

But my hatred will do nothing to change the events of the past. All I can do now is carry on, and follow the path I have set out on since leaving Teldrassil. That path has lead me to my current struggle, and I can only but trust it will see me through it.

I want peace with Horde, and I also want to aid my kin in their plight. Can both desires be satisfied? I cannot enter peace talks with the Warsong Orcs, for they would slay any Alliance on sight, especially a kaldorei. Is battle the only option left, then? Can peace at the cost of life really be defined as true peace?

I know not, and perhaps I am a hypocrite. Or perhaps I have strayed from my path, and am merely lost.

Elune send that I find my way back. ..

-Bronil Nightwind